Hello!
I basically started this blog with the idea of creating a space with inspirational thoughts or quotes I’d think would be worth sharing, but sometimes I believe some contrast is needed, otherwise the happy may seem unreal and unachievably fake when it’s the only thing being showed.
Anyways, this being about guys and love…
I can say I’ve liked quite a few guys in my lifetime, some of them quite a lot for quite a while, whether anything happened between us or not. However, I believe I’ve fallen hard for someone who also showed strong feelings for me and can tell that truly cares about me and my well-being, but on this story, so far, over half the times it has not been all rosy, but dang it was amazing.
I guess I can describe it as a fast love, because definitely it could’ve lasted longer. Even with the little time it was, we got to know a lot about each other, and not just the basics, but inner demons included. In many, many ways this love was really amazing and still is; because even when we are not together anymore, because of wanting different things life-wise, I know I still have very strong feelings towards him. I guess I can say it’s the first time my feelings have been this strong and deep, although to be honest I’ve always been quite a loyal person, for which it usually takes me forever to get over someone and move on, but everyone has their own process and this is not a complain, it is actually something I quite like about myself.
It can be overwhelming and lead to overthinking, but in my head two scenarios exist:
- Something has to happen, either I’ll date someone else for a bit and then He will come back to me and we’ll live happily in-perfectly after.
- I’ll get over him and someone else will come and maybe that new person will be “the one” or there might even be another one after that, who knows.
Either way I know life will bring good things, as it always does, because it’s always about perspective. Honestly, having liked so many guys before, I can see myself eventually liking someone new. But I know I can’t get too deep into that thought yet, as my stomach starts feeling weird and I start thinking of how could I ever love someone else so much, but well, time shall tell…
I guess right now I’m just “stuck” in that awkward middle between getting over someone and really not waning to, but seeing it more of a possibility now, but not really… Hah, yeah… it’s time for distractions and dancing and whatever else. Doesn’t really help that I met him dancing, but it does help that things “ended” well. I quote “ended” because every relationship is eternal, I’m aware that he and I have met in previous lifetimes and I’m sure we’ll meet again. I do have to say I am truly grateful that we’re both mature enough to understand each other and even in the occasions in which we haven’t, we’ve both shown that, how much we care about each other’s well being is the most important thing on the table ❤
Good night to whomever may read this and to all the brokenhearted people out there, just hang on, it’ll be over soon!
Much love,
Vero.
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